About a year and a half ago my new hormone “doctor” made some tweaks to my bio-identical hormone compound. I didn’t like the results.

Every time I complained about her changes she suggested the problems were caused by something different and totally unrelated to the hormone compound. I kept insisting that things were working better before she tweaked my hormones. It was too much of a coincidence to think that the problems had cropped up just as her changes were made – but that they weren’t related to the hormones. She didn’t seem to care what I thought.

Give me strength

Other medical advice she gave me made my primary physician and an endocrinologist very nervous – so it seemed like a good time to stop using that new hormone “doctor.”

Then I had nowhere to turn. Both of my other doctors admitted that they were not proficient in the area of bio-identical hormones, which I appreciated, but I was kind of in a bind. My endocrinologist agreed to continue my prescription, as it was, in order to give me time to find a better solution.

After some disappointing experiences with hormone specialists over the years, I was even more careful than usual in identifying the best possible medical advice for this critically important area. I talked to tons of people and one name kept cropping up as being the best. After about six ringing endorsements I decided to make an appointment, so I will meet this fabulous new doctor just after the first of the year.

So I should be elated now, right? I mean all of these annoying heat waves and other stuff should be gone early on in the New Year, right? Theoretically, this is right, so why am I so guardedly, grudgingly, curmudgeonly reserving my optimism? Because things so rarely work out as planned. Is it possible that I will be the one person who doesn’t like this doctor’s style? Will we struggle unsuccessfully with my hormones only to find out that my thyroid is the culprit? Will this doctor scoff at my discomfort and view me as a big whiny wimp?

I don’t know the answer to any of those questions. What I do know is that I am sick of dealing with this issue over and over again. I had a doctor I loved, he listened and responded and I felt great. Then he left the market, and in those two years I have been treated rudely, overcharged, ignored, buffeted around and badgered by doctors who were horrified at some of my prescriptions. I have not enjoyed the hormone adjustment portion of this two year period. The sad part is, I know from experience that it doesn’t have to be like this. But I’m starting to lose hope. No wonder so many women are lost when it comes to finding the best hormone solution – there are so many wrong turns – and so few right ones.

I’ll try to keep the faith – but it gets harder every month.